Woke up today, I never check my facebook in the mornings, for some reason today I log in, a quick scroll through. All boring stuff, then I see a post by the german girl. It’s like a stab to the chest. She’s posted mentioning another guy on one of those funny memes. A fat guy dancing. Now the reason it stings, is because she had been doing this to me to flirt with me via facebook since we started going on dates.
I did the typical, looked at the guy she’d posted about, then I got angry, really angry. We’re not dating so I have no right to be annoyed, and I know she knows I have been seeing other girls. I think what annoys me is the lack of discreetness. Perhaps she doesn’t realise I can see it, perhaps she’s doing it to get a rise out of me. What’s important, is that either way, she doesn’t care.
What’s really apparent is that I am investing too much of myself in this girl. If she can post one comment on facebook and it hits me like a brick, then I really need to keep her influence in check.
Tom Torero did a video a while ago discussing how it’s players that fall hard, when they fall for a girl. I’ve fallen for her, and I was expected to make her into my girlfriend at some point next year, as she is moving to London.
When so many girls are almost disposable, then you find one you really like, you actually want to hold onto her. I’ve tried not to telegraph that to her, and I think I ‘ve done a pretty good job about keeping myself a mystery whilst drawing her into my life.
Krauser talks about letting them get a window onto your life. The worry I have with that, is that my life isn’t that interesting. Well the parts I can share with her aren’t, I can’t reveal about this blog or the adventures doing daygame I have, and actually that is my most interesting facete.
Mike Cernovich in one of his podcasts talks about becoming compelling to women. That you become so interesting as a person through your experiences and actions that women are compelled to want you. I think I need to work on that.
Now that I’ve put my thoughts down. I can’t control her actions, but I can control how I react to them. The urge to screenshot the offending post and send it to her has gone.
Realistically she is more towards the k end of the spectrum, and I know all girls are always talking to potential suitors, even if they aren’t sleeping with them. Just shows you though, female hypergamy is always working. Or maybe I’m misreading the whole thing, it’s just a friend? but I doubt that.
Actually it’s more because she is k-selected that this is an issue, it took me alot of work to bed her. We’ve already had two really good weekends together, and another 2 planned. That’s alot of investment on her part, well, and mine too, I guess. So this is just like a kick in the teeth.
Probably I’m overthinking this, but if I’m not, then I’m really quite disappointed. Anyway, I know I can’t mention it to her. So the only action is to ignore and carry on regardless.
She’s allowed me to see her true nature though, something I’d almost forgotten.[gap size="3em"][author class="man" title="More About This Author"]